day eleven

surprised by a real-life ghost. no kidding – except the ghost was me. i felt like my spirit had left my body today and i was walking around as an empty carcass. i can’t quite explain it, except that i seemed to be devoid of any emotion for most of the day – numb and very apathetic. and it’s not the kind of thing that i hide very well either. i’m not sure if that’s good or bad? probably good for me, but bad for others. good in the sense that i’m being completely transparent with god so that he can go to work. bad in the sense that if i’m completely honest with others, it puts them in the awkward position of trying to figure out how they should respond.

anyway, not much to report today. i did pray the experimental prayer, but the “surprises” must have taken the day off.